scary music: January 2010

she brought the excitement because
she felt more pain

I would remember her big eyes cartoonish

then my dashboard stopped to matter

(how many) accidental times
how many people

notes

which was truth and which was illusion, i asked myself
"Nationalize" that dirty word
middle managment being paid, the rest are ignorant
need a structure to repress anti-social impulses once people disbelieve in Religion - science
hello! i am in my english class learning about sauntering apples and green apples
people in these books keep dying and it makes me miss you
these eight people I don't even know
scientist: working toward more accurate representation of the world
you remind me of oranges and big hands
accurate weapons
battlefield expanding
war - argue
discuss - argue
shell fire
shell destructive
fifteen compared to two or three
standard battlefield
expanding - modern
9,000 yards - a very big place
very deep
numerical expansion
large numbers - pretty well prepared
sent off in a matter of two weeks
very expensive
people doing what they do - trained - ready to fight like that
armed with balloons - expanding
exponentially increase strength by making a friend based on contentioncies
Germany positioned between France and Russia
France and Russia - weird relationship
the French had been antagonistic
Napolean conquered Moscow and burned them
there was some tension because of that
the French support the Poles
Russians say "That's no good."
the Germans grew in strength
reasonably powerful in charge
reserve system, improvements in technological improvements
alliances spiral into bigger problems
it's so easy to see in retrospect
how much more difficult to see objects before they emerge
Louis Armstrong says you can break music down to two things: good and bad. When something's good, you don't do anything to it. You just enjoy it. You know it's goood because you can tap your foot to it
but, but
it goes back and forth
children who try to speak another language - dreams, salamandars
I thought you had her
it's because of what you do in this world
you would have thought there'd be more consideration there
radio programs for children on saturday mornings
middle class has a say but not yet intellectually mature enough
little curiosity beyond that part
out of the seriousness of the tragedy
democracy: least interfering, least restrictive, does the least harm
arguing for people to think for themselves
how did you do that? I don't know, but I did it!
a kind of African consciousness that didn't really exist before
a very tough stone
I never knew how to express my feelings when I liked someone
throw worms at girls
distracted
300-400 different languages spoken
when people and ideas are treated as common
you use what's been handed down
what is this self that has awakened from somebody else's art?
an artist today?
I seem to be completely out of touch

Sunday, January 17, 2010